Holy fuck I have twitter!?
Kachingz
Fusion
The King
I tend to talk in my own weird way and people would be confused with what I have to say. I am always forgetful, I dislike having to be the one to decide for everything, I am still in search of someone who can understand me. I still have not figured out on how to fill in this space with something about me in detail yet.
Livejournal Blogskins Twitter
Tagboard
Friends
Zhong ning
Adeline
Alson
Amanda
Bevin
Bolong
Boyuan
Carissa
Charlene
Cheddar
Chermaine
Cherie
Christine
Chuanwah
Dawn
Gekling
Gwen
Fiona
Hani
Jaspreet
Jepthah
Jeralyn
Jiaxin
Jiamin
Jiehui
Jingwen
Joanna
Joey
Junisa
Kokwai
Laising
Leyi
Liying
Maria
Mastura
Meixuan
Meixuan
Morgan
Nabillah
Nicholas
Oki
Peichin
Peiqin
Regina
Samantha
Samantha
Samuel
Saritha
Sera
Sharmaine
Sheela
Shi Ying
Siew ping
Siying
Sohwynn
Sophie
Swieting
Szeling
Toon Wen
Tyson
Vanessa
Venecia
Vivian
Wijitra
Xinyi
Xinyi
Yaochong
Yeling
Yingzi
Yiwen
You Cheng
Zhen Ying
Archive
Credits
He who dissapears
Thursday, July 02, 2009 @ 1:52 PM
You know every single time I lay on my bed I start to think about how things have changed since the day he left me all on my own to fend for myself. It was like a hell of a rough period of time for me. But right now I seem to be in a totally different environment that even thinking back, I'm desperately trying to find an explanation and reason on how and why number1 seemed to step into my life, just like that.
I've seen how much he has changed from that charming man to someone.. I don't even know anymore, and it just hurts to know that we can never even be friends again anymore except for times when politeness are exchanged. Because the look in his eyes tells me so.
Or maybe it wasn't he who have changed, maybe he never changed at all, it was I, who changed. Or rather, I have become someone who is standing on the outside watching in, and the whole view of everything and everyone just changed. I still blame myself for what I've done actually, I never actually thought of it as a "both parties at fault" situation to begin with, even though I've been trying to tell myself that.
I took a step ahead of my life because I no longer see a point in holding back for someone I do not know anymore.