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The King
I tend to talk in my own weird way and people would be confused with what I have to say. I am always forgetful, I dislike having to be the one to decide for everything, I am still in search of someone who can understand me. I still have not figured out on how to fill in this space with something about me in detail yet.
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Immoderately
Monsters Vs. Aliens
What have I forgotten?
New skin on the way right now.
Fifi Lapin
I can't get my fucking mind off them.
Ouch!
International Idol
Fixed
Why Not?
Disconnect
These few days
Star Trek
Candlelight
Angels And Demons
Makes you
Popped!
If that's what you want, alright.
Stick to home, please.
Scary
Remains the same.
Gastroenteritis
Two more.
Hypothesis
Birthday song.
Study?
Jin's Birthday's Photos
Mmmmm.
Amazing
Worned out
Credits
Immoderately
Sunday, May 31, 2009 @ 11:55 PM
With the pictures and the objects still left at the same place without being touched, I find it immoderately hard, to move even one thing, to move it away from my sight, to move it away to somewhere else. I find it hard to change it. I find it immoderately hard. I find it immoderately hard to adapt to the different surroundings I'm having right now, I find it immoderately unbelievable that I am in no significance to a certain human or object anymore. I am immoderately distressed about it. I am immoderately stressed out on the things I should not be. I am immoderately confused on what I should do. I am immoderately in need of someone who could be patient and give me all the time I could ever have to change. I am immoderately desperate for a change of heart, because this heart is killing me by the second.
I am immoderately tired. Of simply, possibly, everything single little thing. But I hold on to all the little things that could push me forward, and hopefully one day move me away from this position that I am in.
Music : (Sweetest Goodbye - Maroon 5)
Monsters Vs. Aliens
Saturday, May 30, 2009 @ 4:08 PM
I never really showed my artwork out do I? I don't really have the chance to because I don't have a camera to my own, but I saw this while I was flipping through old images and decided that I would love to show it to you guys. Miss Du wanted us to fill it in with patterns with a mask already printed on it.
And if it wouldn't have been for Yeling, I would have been quite stuck at this! So much credit goes to Aunty Yeling!
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Yesterday was quite well spent with Jesrene, my colleague from work, and I was actually quite nervous about it at first because I was afraid it would turn out to become an awkward night spent chatting all about work, while everything else would be just as dull.
But when we met and saw each other we burst out laughing, we still talk about work, but in a fun way, gossips and everything, we shopped around a lil bit and had dinner together at, of course, Manhanttan, where we called for all the sauce and was going crazy over this cute guy that was working, haha!
Watched Monsters Vs. Aliens together and I would say I could watch it a second time actually! I love Bob the Blob, or whatever his name is, it's pretty cute and funny, quite enjoyable.
Took a bus to meet a few friends for a while at the court before walking home together, and pretty much sums up a friday spent this week.
I am utterly craving for the mudpie at our workplace after trying it yesterday, the mudpies are made by ourselves, and I once helped Aunt Gertrude in making them before, it's quite chocolate heaven, I must eat it today, before mj session starts!
Music : (SPEAKER SPOIL _|_)
Oki : HAHAHAH TEN BUCKS PL$
Passer : Online! Was a very long time ago, I don't think they're still selling it :(
Passerby : I don't have a camera!
VNS : ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS OMG IM SO BLESSED TO SEE THAT BIRDY IT WAS CUTE REMEMBER IT VNS!!!
Jeph : Ya lor!!!
Ella : Fifi Lapin is very cute!
Alson : Is it? Lol not going to change, too lazy, too bad! _|_
Boyuan : Fucking noob, thanks! Judo dinner you going?
Sohwynn : YOU NEVER EVEN SIT IN A CAR I DRIVE BEFORE. ANYHOW.
Jeralyn : OMG JIEJIE! YOU WANT YOU JOIN YOURSELF! lol.
Chuanwah : Hey thanks! mj soon ok!
Ale : Haha now bright bright one i see also shuang~
What have I forgotten?
Thursday, May 28, 2009 @ 1:25 AM
I remember I fucking lost this bag, lots of things inside, my heart ached so much!
Then I remember all the times I spent meeting Xinyi in town.
Then I remembered Sera once fractured her ankle!
Then we had cupcakes together and this picture made her laugh :)
Then I remembered going out to study with Sera, but always failing to get things in my head.
Then I remembered I was showing off on how high I could jump and she could not cause she fractured her ankle!
Then I remember the day I got my contact lenses! Lost this one, now wearing another one!
Then I remembered I spent a bomb on renting Dslrs and took lots of pictures
Then I remembered I never wore this jumpsuit anymore, will wear it out soon!
Then I remembered going to sheesha with sharmaine and other friends!
And there's still so much more but I am too lazy to do it at this hour.
There's so much I have seem to have forgotten, in so little time. I hope I could blog all the little and big things in my life so I would never forget. I'm running late, even though at this hour I'm going out to have supper, or maybe just a drink at prata.
Goodnight, everyone.
Oh, do you like my new skin?
New skin on the way right now.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009 @ 9:16 PM
Fifi Lapin
@ 8:57 PM
Nice to sleep for 12 hours.
I can't get my fucking mind off them.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009 @ 6:13 PM
Have been weeks and they are still on my mind.
Ouch!
@ 4:07 PM
Slipped and fell yesterday at work while doing closing. It happened so fast like a swift one second thing and I find myself on the floor. Now my left hand looks retarded and I have to sit leaning on my right side. Doesn't stop me from going out today with mom though, staying at home and waiting for her to be back from her facial.
Thanks alot to Roger for driving me home, spotted Sunny halfway and went to get a drink at prata with Junjie also.
Mom just called! Gtg shower now!
Lol. Nice picture.
International Idol
Sunday, May 24, 2009 @ 1:26 PM
My muscles are aching even more than yesterday. After meeting up with Jacob yesterday, headed to the movies with Wei Huang, Chun Hei and Roger. Roger took his daddy's car and drove us there, was a pleasant ride except for the fact that he purposely break suddenly sending us all flying to the front.
I was sitting at the front and it was fun not to wear seat belts(daddy always make me wear them) and Roger's a pretty smooth driver, I like. Hehehe ^^ Caught Night At The Museum 2, was laughing my ass off, love the star wars part. Fucking funny, but they thought that 1 was nicer than 2.
Later on, it will be the auditions for International Idol. Fuck. I'm damn fucking nervous.
Wish me luck la. I got a feeling we can't get to the finals. Sad.
Fixed
Saturday, May 23, 2009 @ 6:03 PM
My hair will be in that colour. If mommy agrees. Which I think she will say no straight away :(
Oh did I mention that I cut my fringe? still looks the same, but I thought that it was better, and my dad could stop complaining about how ugly my fringe is all the time.
My computer is finally in good working condition.. except that the speakers are not working. So my next pay will have to go to the Razor speakers, okay, maybe not. Maybe just some normal speaker will do. Waking up at 9am today was hell, when I slept at 3-4 in the morning last night. I'm hell as tired, I crashed on the bed in the afternoon, laying for an hour and I can't sleep. What the fuck.
Auditions are tomorrow, I am nervous as hell, not to mention my muscles are aching like shit from not dancing/exercising for a long time. I have to scream in agony as the mirror in my room fell and I have to bend down to pick it up. Hell, I tell you.
And now I have to make this a quick one cause I have to meet Jacob to discuss some things at prata, then follow on I have to go to Iluma to watch a movie with Roger. Omg, panda eyes unleashed.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JORDAN!!!!!! (my brother. eh, really my real brother.)
Today's Goal : Accomplish 12 hours of sleep.
Why Not?
Friday, May 22, 2009 @ 12:30 PM
Did you totally, totally see her wearing my babies? I have two of them, anybody wants to buy?
When I went out with Micheal the previous time I was approached by his friends to join this 'International Idol' competition where you could dance and they needed someone not from the church in order to join. So I'm being a nice person as they asked me to join them. No pros, they all just want to have fun so, why not?
They are SOT students coming from Japan and Taiwan, and in a few more months they are going to return to their countries.
Might as well make their stay as fun as possible.
Aiya, late again.
Disconnect
Thursday, May 21, 2009 @ 3:19 PM
Very funny. My computer has a new better motherboard, and I now have a new Samsung touchscreen monitor which I don't like very much because it's 22" apart from my usual 19" screen, and still, I tried turning on the computer but the screen just disconnects somehow one way or another. Sad.
Hong Kong Cafe for brunchner(all three together la), walked around for a bit. Caught Fireball and just looking at the screen it's as if like you can feel the pain yourself. Damn painful to watch.
Then we hanged around for a little while more as we left and chilled down at the bridge with Zhen Ying, Ka Chai and Lim.
I should take a shower now, else I'm going to be late for work.
These few days
Tuesday, May 19, 2009 @ 3:09 PM
These few days, I thought that I should give in my time to someone who could make me happy and forget about the heartache and the sadness. And I have given in most of my time to Roger, who seems to make me laugh since he's quite a joker himself.
Yesterday we spent our nights casting sleep aside and went away to have supper and sitting by the coffeeshop watching chinese shows, laughing our ass off(our own reasons.) Then we went to the platforms and talked about what we wanted to achieve in our lifes, how we want our families to be like, how you want to raise your kids, I think.. we talked about almost everything.
It was nice to have good company, especially he's only living right at the block behind me, and going up to my balcony I could already see his kitchen. It's as if I've found a good friend again.
And I seem to have forgotten something I thought I would never forget.
Star Trek
Monday, May 18, 2009 @ 1:31 PM
Then it was watching Star Trek with Chun Hei, Wei Huang & Ian. Quite a good movie, then we went to Kb to slack and talked till 3am!!
Lol, good to see Sylar from Heroes in the movie.
Going out with Christmin right now!
"I shall not KP so much already I'm going out now byebye" LOL JOKE.
Candlelight
Sunday, May 17, 2009 @ 4:35 PM
As usual, I'm late, how to go to City Hall ah?
Back to fill this space later, I perhaps.
Angels And Demons
Friday, May 15, 2009 @ 4:42 PM
“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”
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I'll ask the clouds to bring the rain for you today, so you can cry.
No, I still can't get it out of my head.
Makes you
@ 3:21 PM
Makes you hungry. Makes me hungry.
Popped!
Thursday, May 14, 2009 @ 6:30 PM
Sorry, as you can see, Adobe Express have decorations where you can stick things like ribbons, robots, balls everywhere you want! (good way to cover my unglam face haha)
I popped my wax in the microwave, cause I clearly remembered that the salesgirl said that it is microwave/oven safe. So I popped it in, diverted my attention to my maid cooking and when I heard a pop sound I immediately opened the lid and..
The whole thing exploded at the bottom, leaving the glass, the sides and everywhere dirty and sticky with sugar now. Win. From The Bodyshop summore.
Yesterday when I was walking home I got stalked by this weird disgusting old guy which doesn't seem to want to make him move until I did. Then R came to the rescue and had to drag me to the pub nearby which coincidentally was one I'd wondered how it'd looked like from the inside. Then was the walk home which Ben insisted that it was called the 'Walk Of Shame'(go wiki it) but lol, totally not counted.
While walking home it was enjoyable to having laugh in the middle of the night, while cars are little and your echoes of laughter could be heard on the roads. I had a good time.
I'll ask the sun to shine away from you, so you can cry.
Can't get it off my mind, wouldn't it be nice to have someone tell you that.
Music : (So You Can Cry - Ne-Yo)
If that's what you want, alright.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009 @ 2:13 PM
So it's over
He's with someone else, and you know her
And you just can't get any lower
You sit in the dark alone
You won't answer your phone
Well, I'm sorry
I won't attend your pity party
I'd rather go have calamari
And maybe a drink
And yes, I think you should come with me
Life isn't long
There will be pain but life goes on
With every day, a brand new song
But if you'd rather stay at home
Let me do you a favor
I'll ask the sun to shine away from you today
So you can cry
If that's what you want alright
And I'll ask the clouds to bring the rain for you today
So you can cry
If that's what you want alright
Ohhhh if that's what you want alright
I'm a lover,
And the pain of the heart from another
Can be difficult to recover
Yes, this I know
But difficult isn't impossible
And you shiver
He was your warmth
You cry, lips quiver
Well, honey, go on and cry me a river
If you wanna be down
Well then, fine let me help you out
How about
I'll ask the sun to shine away from you today
So you can cry
If that's what you want alright
And I'll ask the clouds to bring the rain for you today
So you can cry
If that's what you want alright
Ohhhh if that's what you want alright
And your tears won't bring him back
I know you wish that it did
But it just don't work like that
I know that healing takes time
Even your heart has a pace
But how much time are you gonna to take?
Too much would be a mistake
I'll ask the sun to shine away from you today
So you can cry
If that's what you want alright
And I'll ask the clouds to bring the rain for you today
So you can cry
If that's what you want alright
I'll ask the sun to shine away from you today
So you can cry.
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Exams are over. But somehow I don't feel happy at all. I am far from being happy. Shall take these few days to relax, and do whatever I want. That will probably make me feel much better.
I have finished reading two books already, A Kingdom Of Dreams and Double Standards both by Judith Mcnaught. Time to dig my sister's cupboard again for something else.
Stick to home, please.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009 @ 3:13 PM
I haven't had anything done to my art yet, so I decided to spend all my time today at home, probably turn off my cell, and lock myself in my room after watching the season finale of House which is aporximately 6 minutes and 24 seconds left to being complete.
My god damn computer will only be fixed when the weekend comes but I have pictures to edit with my photoshop, like my sister's 20th birthday and that sushi outing with Sera, Sueann and Leyi. Which every single one of them has already blogged about.
I might probably fail my art if I were to pass this mid year, I had a tiff with my art teacher over my art work when she dumped it at me asking me to finish them when I have absolutely no idea how to blend in paint.
Then followed on when my art teacher presumed that teachers and school are to bide to my call of help no matter what, as if like they owe me a life or something. Seriously I'm not angry, I am immensely insulted.
Which leads to no art work being submitted.
Time's up! House is here.
Scary
Monday, May 11, 2009 @ 5:25 PM
Remains the same.
Sunday, May 10, 2009 @ 2:18 PM
Every step I'm taking, every move I make feels. Lost with no direction my faith is shaking but I gotta keep trying. Gotta keep my head held high. There's always gonna be another mountain, I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna be a uphill battle, but sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there, ain't about what's waiting on the other side. It's the climb, yeah, the climb.
The struggles I'm facing, the chances I'm taking, sometimes might knock me down. But no, I'm not breaking. I may not know it but these are the moments that I'm gonna remember most.
I never thought that I had anymore to give. Pushing me so far, here I am without you. Drink, to all that we have lost, mistakes we have made.
Everything will change.
But love remains the same.
Gastroenteritis
Saturday, May 09, 2009 @ 1:41 AM
Yeah I have this thing right now.
Two more.
Friday, May 08, 2009 @ 6:22 PM
As much as I hate seeing tons of photos that do not belong to me on my blog, I don't think I have much of a choice, my computer crashed, and the screen just won't work together with the computer, and I'm using the other computer outside at the living room, and it's just so fucking hot amd humid, even after bathing in cool water.
"Computer's down?"
"Yeah"
"What's wrong?"
"The screen's not working"
"Then take it to repairs, if it costs too much just get a new computer" said daddy.
Wah, I love daddy.
Two more papers to go, and then I'll be stuffing myself with tons of work and earning lots of cash to get my -----. Hopefully I don't regret my choice because I've settled for something else instead of the first choice but maybe I'll change back to my first choice anyway.
Cutting myself some slack today, I'm going to hang around my area. But I guess I have to go see a doctor first.
I can't seem to breathe.
Hypothesis
Wednesday, May 06, 2009 @ 8:18 PM
As you can see my babies have arrived, and I am extremely happy about it. Was probably the only happy thing I was happy about throughout the week.
I think I have come to a hypothesis that I am pissed with myself today over math and geography. Thank you.
Birthday song.
Tuesday, May 05, 2009 @ 4:08 PM
Out to study.
Study?
Monday, May 04, 2009 @ 10:52 PM
Then it was break and no one was allowed to get out of the school so I was stuck in school. Then comes paper 2 and it was seriously "wtf turtles?" as I tried to finish it as soon as I can cause my eyes were hurting from trying to keep them open.
Then the boys came over to study which wasn't so productive as expected, so I studied to myself Geography. Math and Geog together on the same day, you want to kill me?
Wah sian. Good game.
Music : (Save Me - Josh Verdes)
Jin's Birthday's Photos
@ 10:49 PM
Jin you are getting older by the day haha.
Mmmmm.
Saturday, May 02, 2009 @ 6:36 PM
Danny Roberts of Igor + André, has collaborated with Borders & Frontiers on the tee above.
Amazing
Friday, May 01, 2009 @ 3:55 PM
It is amazing, on how two heartbroken people who went through the same thing, feel the same thing, can make each other feel so much better.
Worned out
@ 1:35 PM
Yesterday I spent my day skipping school because of my horrible headache, only to find out that even if I were to drag my ass to school, I would have to drag it back because there was a temperature-taking exercise, and Alson and the rest was sent home too. Haha.
Chermaine asked me out because she wanted to shop, so we decided town would be a good idea, walked around, and had lunch, and walked around, saw a few things I would love to get from Zara, and this awesome jumpsuit which miraculously wasn't too long for someone so short like me. Was already worned out before lunch, still having a fever, flu, cough, sore throst, headache, muscle aches all over. Sigh.
Reached home and decided to meet up Jason "name me something sweet" since it's been years since we last sat down and had a chat, was pretty happy to see him, he seems to have grown up alot, and we exchanged our stories. He still effortlessly made me laugh all the time.